It’s acutally be about 6months
its pretty awful I love smoking
its so good
everyone is lying to you smoking is the best thing and I dont get to do it because HEALTH
guys here’s a great thing i have learnt:
if you are the sort of person who doesn’t really get stuff done, don’t tell yourself you will fix it by taking on a lot of responsibility! Fix the fucking problem first.
I’m basically in a situation right now where if I back out, I will have fucked myself out of a degree, and upset a lot of other people (and possibly fucked them out of theirs). This is all because I listened to the part of me that told me to go for something I wasnt really sure about in the first place.
Now the thing is, this basic problem isnt new. Since I started uni, I’ve sort of regretted it. I just pushed myself into that world because I thought I would figure it out as I went. All I’ve done is distract myself from that. My problems havent changed.
I dont feel like I’ve grown as a person at all. The things I have succeeded at in the past three years look like the achievements of a month.
I want help, but I am too embarrassed to ask for it. I am embarrassed at my lack of skill, my lack of ability to handle things. my lack of growth. like a typical depressive person i prefer to wallow in self loathing then take the steps to fix it.
and really i’m just coming full circle here. I have a bunch of stuff I need to do that it going to be hard and i dont wanna
how do i life
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