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█͕̻̠̓̏̔̑͊͐̈́͛ ̜̭̜̒̄ͤ̾ͤ́̒̾█̨̨̲͖͓̌̏͘ ̶̢̖̞̯̮͔̔ͤͨ͌͡█̶͓̫͉̲͖̞̝͉͗̓̐̽͆ͭ̿̽͠ ̵̡̡̗͙̻͈̮̪̣ͦͤ͊ͬ̓́█̸̶̹͍̺̽͊͘ ̧̦̩̗̩̹̫͓̤͍͐█̶̘̹̩͍̥̞̎͋̃͒̔ͪ̓͘ ̗̺̗̝̻ͧ̈́ͩ̊͛█͖̥͓̟̰̦ͦ̓̐͐́ͅ ̞̯͈̜͎͈̺̺̀̌ͯ̅█̧̙̯͕̼͋̓̔̂̑̿͂ ̮̪̳̺̝ͪ̾̄̚█͋ͧ̔̓͒̌͐͆̆҉͏̶͔ ̵̨̖̖̊̔͋█ͬͪ̄ͭ̑ͥͬ҉͍̜̟̜̱̠͕̮ ̸̣͎̣̺̠͕̉̓͑̅ͤ█̸̵͉ͮ͋ͮ̋̆ͥͫ̈́͟ ̶̡͎̼̼̪̺͕͔͎̽̌͜█̖̣͌ͦͬͫ͐ͫ̎͢ ̩̙͕͔̯̮̗̤̄̌̅͋̐͑̐͐█̠̩̜̮̲̮̥͓̄̉ͨ̄͐͂͡ ̗̲̰͍̖̗͛ͩ͑͒̏ͧ̇̌͊͠█̧̦̲̜̭̬̤͖̬̘̅̏̓̚ ̬͈̠̥̲̜̂̃̀͑̀█̸͚̥̭͈ͩͭ͌ ͍̬̘̖̜̺ͥ́̍͋̅█̷̙͎͛̀ ̽̇҉̲̮͙̭͓█̨ͥͣ̿͏̜̪̩͙̥ ͙̝̏͋̽ͯ͆█̵̓ͨ̅̌͗ͬ҉̯́ ̴̡̺̱̘̰̙̜͚̞̥̈ͬ█̶̠̮͙ͦ̆̏ͬ͌̈́ͨͧ́ ̯͔̫͖̺͎̺ͩ̓̀ͥ̐̅͋̍█͖̘̼̱̺̥̼̒͒ͦ̓̐͆ͥͨ̀͘͢ ͖̱͖̖ͯͦ́█͕̞̬͖̮̀̈͂ͨ̓ͨͪ̓ͮ̀ ̯̯̒̂ͮ̆̒ͣ̉͂█͖̣͔͒ͩ̃ͯ͐̀̈́́͜͝ ̣̬̯͉͍͉̩̝̟̍ͫ█͈͇̪̟̦̠͒ͫ̎ͬͭ̎ͯ̄͠ͅͅ ̨̤͍̈̓͟͞ͅ█̷̵̛͖̼̪͉̹̮ͤ́ ̴͎̻͍͔̃͟█̊͑̂҉̧͕̥̯̘ ͍̌̍͑ͣ̓͢ͅ█͒҉̶̴̰̣͎̙̟̝̯̼͈ ̯̘̜̩̦̮ͧ̋ͥ͆ͫ̀͘█̶̧̳̟̲ͣ̈͋̾̿ͫ̊̍ ̜̱̱̇̃̾ͨ͜͝█̛̫͖̟̫͚͌͐ͥ̀͘ͅ ͌ͭ͢͏̛̠̣͇̮͖̫̝̣ͅ█̵̩̬͔̗̲̹̙͑͋̿̓ͯ́ ̖͖̖̳̋ͣ█̜̞̟̭̠̩̄ͣ͐̀̽̎ ͙̤̅ͣͣͩͨ█̡͖͇ͦ͌̽͒́ͅ ̸̮̬͎̻̆̓ͫ̔́̑ͤ̽█̵̷̨̘̠͕̳͓̟̙̉̍ͩ̓ͅ ̧̮̠̙̣͍ͪ█̡̞͇͛̾ͧ̎̽̓ ̛̹̳̠̫̺̭̳ͦ̓̔̒̐̈́̊̔█̩͆̐̑̄̉ͮ ̸̠̹͓̪̾̊̄͂́█̟̜͓͋̏̑̔̈̿͜ ̢̦̰͙̩͐̈ͬ̌̀̈█̲̭̮̠͍̱͙͂̔ ͕̱̑ͦ█̴̖͔̹͓̬̇͛̓͊̂ͭ̀͜ ̵̼̎ͦ͐ͩͨ█̧̡̯̬̜̳͚͚̉̋̑̓ͯ͗ͅ ̶̸̱̯̭͇͂̂̾█̺̱̬̼̬͔͛͜͝ ̴͙̣̯͚͙̎͒̊̈́͐͡█͕̦̰̰̱̖̜̭͐̊̽̀ͅ ̏̊̎̌͒̌͐҉̡̛̹̭͇█͔̗̦ͬͤͯͦͨͅ ̍̽͆҉̭̜̦͓̭̲͢█͚̇̎͊ ̢͚̤̈͊ͮͫͩͅ█̜̭̉͋ͨ̏̂̌͌ ̙̬͕͎̂̿̍ͪ̿ͤ́█̃͗̔҉͝ͅ ͉̤̦̠͖̦̬͖̌̓ͦͫͧ͆ͧ͞█̜̦̟̮̫̥ͧͪ̆̓̽͗̎͋ ̫̣̲͈̒ͥͥ́̔̅̀ͩ͘█̪̙̜̱͉̪̞ͭ͒̋͌̋ͪ͌́ ̸̄͒͏̝̝̻̦͉͖█̘͍̗̩̟̤̘͇̈̃̒̒̌ ̸̻͕̘̭̙̼̹̘̪̌͋̊͊̊ͦ̀█̜͍͍̻͉̱̺͎̂͊̑̽̊͛ͦͯ͜ ̳͚ͧ̾̀ͨͪ̈͊̍͞█̨̼̆̆̓ͦ̀ ̲̞̹̞̭̊̀ͧ̀̕█̛͉̺̐̀͌́ ̸͉̞ͤͫ̊█͌ͤ̃ͭ̐҉̨̜̗̝̝̟ ͪͣͤ̒͊ͥ҉̸͎̩̮͙̫͙█͖̰̜͋ͨ͌͘ ̧͇͍̟̣̲̘͍͙ͭ̎̽͊̾̃ͬ̾█̤̖̹͋ͮͩͭ̀̀͜ ̡̛͔̘̣̠̼͇̻ͧ̆͡█̨̘̗ͤͤ͌̅̃̑͠ ͓̬̬̣͔̺̱̘͖ͧͪ͑█̛̤̮̰̫̩̮̣ͮ̃̔ͩ͐̿̉ ̛̭̀̂͝█̵̤͎͚̲͉̟̎͑͒̊̒ͥ ̵̷͙̼̖̲̫͗̓ͬ̐ͮ̌͊█̺͚̇ͮͣ̽ͦ͋ͭ ͉̱̪̀̂̔͛̀̄͊ͧ͠█̑̓̿͋́̑͟͏̪̖̻̝͈̼ ̡̱̹̣̣̺͌̐ͮ̃̔̋̃̎█̴̊̌͊̓̓͜҉͖̣̟͙̯͚ ̣̪͔̺̄̀ͭ͑͋̚͘͘█̵̦̘̮͔̘̱̀ͪ͗̒̎̌̎̏̽͡͡ ̔ͫ̏͂ͤͭ҉̫͍͉͕͇█̷̖͉̝̽͛̍̀̿ͫ ̡̟̝̘͈̠̱̒ͥ͂̓ͤ█̸͚̦̿̊̿ͣ̚ ̛̥̳̞̠͇͖̦̖ͯ́̇ͥ̔ͯ̆͡█̵ͭ̃ͩ͋ͮ͛̎͡͏̮̗͎ ̨̟̥͂̈́͜ͅ█̣̻̱̓̌̌̎͟ ̩̩ͧ̈́̀█͍̥͉̙͑̑̋ͩ͆͘ ̸̮̮͖̙̫̤̒̿̈́̏█̧̨̭̻͋̊ͨ ̣̳͙̥ͬ̀̔̊ͧͫ̑̑̀█̭̩͐͒͆̈ ̶̝̞͑̅█̹͍̻̻̜̣̾͌̃͢ ̢͔̤̬̀ͤ͐͆͌ͣ̽ͫ͢█̾͟͠͏͈̬̣̯̙̯͔͙ ̴͍̳̬͒́̑̒́̚͜█͍̰̝̹̖̳̏̔͑̿̍̄ͨͯͦ͠ ̸̢̟͉͔͂̽ͮ̎ͧ͢█̸͈ͣ͑̕ͅ ͈͓͉̽̑̽͑̿̎̆͐̀ͅ█̞͔̭̥̙͓̮͛̈ͦ ̶̨̞̣̺̹̩̥̿̓̓̋̒͛̎́█̸̴̛͖̼̫̈ͨ͊̆̂ ̍͗̅͡͏͍̪̖̙͔́█̸̧͙̦̰̰͚̋̃̾͒͗͐́ͅ ̷̡͍̺̅̋ͨ̎̑̈́̃█̢͈̫̬̲̫̾̉̀ͭͭ͛ͥ͘ͅͅ ̣̰̟̥̠̤̯̖̒͋́ͣͧ█͔͇̜̫̯̰̼̈́̊ͭ͑̔̑ͦ͗́ ̱͔͈̝̺ͩ̇̈́̋̊̀̆̊͜

It’s acutally be about 6months

read about my problems

guys here’s a great thing i have learnt:

if you are the sort of person who doesn’t really get stuff done, don’t tell yourself you will fix it by taking on a lot of responsibility! Fix the fucking problem first.

I’m basically in a situation right now where if I back out, I will have fucked myself out of a degree, and upset a lot of other people (and possibly fucked them out of theirs). This is all because I listened to the part of me that told me to go for something I wasnt really sure about in the first place. 

Now the thing is, this basic problem isnt new. Since I started uni, I’ve sort of regretted it. I just pushed myself into that world because I thought I would figure it out as I went. All I’ve done is distract myself from that. My problems havent changed.

I dont feel like I’ve grown as a person at all. The things I have succeeded at in the past three years look like the achievements of a month.

I want help, but I am too embarrassed to ask for it. I am embarrassed at my lack of skill, my lack of ability to handle things. my lack of growth. like a typical depressive person i prefer to wallow in self loathing then take the steps to fix it.

and really i’m just coming full circle here. I have a bunch of stuff I need to do that it going to be hard and i dont wanna

how do i life

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